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I’m Sick.

February 22nd, 2018

This is hard to admit, but I am not doing well right now.

I’ve been suffering from severe chronic migraines since I was a teenager. Calling them “headaches” doesn’t do them justice; I can’t take aspirin or ibuprofen to help with the pain, I can barely function when they hit, and the recovery is slow and leaves me vulnerable to rebound migraines for hours or days afterwards. I have to spend most of my time walking on eggshells, babying myself and avoiding many of my favorite activities.

I want to be healthy so. badly. I spend most of my days hiding in a dark room, listening to the low hum of a white noise machine while I sip Pedialyte and try not to vomit or pass out from the pain. If I’m lucky, I get two days per week of normal-ish functioning.

I have 10 different medications on me at all times in case a migraine hits. Sometimes the meds do nothing, and I end up in the ER because the nausea is so intense I’m unable to keep pills or liquids down. Even when the meds do work, they leave my brain foggy, zap all my energy, and turn me into a vegetable. I can’t drive, make simple decisions, or remember much of what happens around me. I’ve been on countless other preventative medications and tried a lot of lifestyle changes, but nothing has worked so far. And some of the preventative side effects have been almost as bad as having the migraine anyway.

To reduce the likelihood of a migraine, I’ve tried to identify what can trigger them. So far my list is:

low blood sugar
birth control
hormone changes around my cycle
stress
flying
too much sleep
too little sleep
wine
barometric pressure changes (more than 0.20 milibars per day)
strong chemical smells
severe climate changes
heavy smoke
dehydration
physical labor
and possibly certain foods

I’m very active on migraine blogs and have tried countless remedies in an attempt to get relief. I receive emails from people offering me advice and I truly appreciate it. Here’s what I’ve done so far:

Lots of medications (too many to list – if you’ve heard of a migraine med assume I’ve done it)
acupuncture
massage therapy
yoga
over hydrating (seriously, I drink tons of water)
baths
essential oils
exercise
seeing a regular chiropractor
sphenopalatine ganglion (SPG) nerve blocks
CBD oil
every over the counter medicine or migraine remedy I’ve encountered

What I’m trying this year:

Botox (I’m waiting on my neurologist to see if we can try it)
I’m waiting for paperwork for an inpatient headache clinic in Philly. I want to go ASAP. It’s supposed to be the one of the best in the world and I’m hoping they can help identify more effective therapies and reduce my pain.
Elimination dieting
…And whatever else my doctors recommend

My mental health has suffered significantly because I’m sick all the damn time. Being barely able to function makes me feel awful and guilty. The pain, depression, and anxiety pull me into a downward spiral of negativity and wreck any attempts at productivity.

I’m often so weak that I have to rely heavily on my poly/kink family. They are my world, and I am so thankful to have them in my life. When we go out they make sure I have water and snacks, and they watch out for me to make sure I’m feeling ok as the night progresses and I expend what energy I do have. When we stay in, they play video games and watch awful reality tv with me to help distract me, and they take turns rubbing my head and shoulders to help ease the pain. They let me cry, vent, and take me to doctors appointments or hospitals when I’m too sick to function. I’ve always valued my independence, strength, and my ability to lead and get shit done. Not being able to fulfill that strong leader-type of role is really messing with my sanity. It’s very difficult for me to ask for help, admit that I’m sick, and not shine the way I normally do. Simply put, my mind is fierce and strong and my body just isn’t keeping up. I feel like I’m too young and have too much life to live to be inside and in pain all of the time.

But, I’m not a quitter. I’m a problem solver and a hard worker. I’ll figure out a way to make this work and shine again. Sessions are hard for me these days, but I’m actively trying to do more. If you’re looking for services from me, keep emailing me once a month to see how I’m doing. I want to see you, I just can’t when I’m only 20% okay. You deserve me when I’m able to give you 100% of my creative, sadistic self. I don’t do half measures – it’s not how my brain works.

I also get a lot of requests offering help when I’m sick, for massages, food runs, errands, etc. I really appreciate the offers but I’m not generally in a state to receive them. I prefer to hide in a cave only exposing myself to those I trust. You don’t want to serve a Queen who has been in pajamas all day, hasn’t done her hair or makeup and can barely function – and even if you don’t mind, I do. I prefer not to be seen in that light, even by my favorite submissives.

There are a few flavors of help that I’m comfortable accepting in my weakened state: Come to my live channel and hop in chat and talk to me! Send me a nice email. I put things on my wishlist that help like food items, Uber gift cards, etc. Follow my social media and leave nice comments. Just be a decent human being. I notice these things, and I’ll recognize and reward for your kind acts of service when I’m feeling better.

Thanks for listening.

-SL

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Life Update

March 24th, 2017

Life. is. good.

November and December are always a blur thanks to my birthday and the holidays. The most memorable moment was being thoroughly spoiled at the mall during a Christmas session in Orlando with a long-time client. Teasing and torturing someone who has been so loyal and caring over the years is always a delightful experience for me.

January and February were incredibly busy, but March has slowed down. I’m currently in Philly with my best friend who is undergoing a fairly complicated surgery. I’ve been her nurse and caregiver since March 12th. Being raised in the South didn’t prepare me for all this snow. I don’t know how people deal with this weather. The calm beauty of a blizzard is nice but I’ve been freezing my tail off. I just want to stay in bed or in a hot bath all day long. I need to gear up before I embark on another snowy adventure.

Most people are surprised that I have such a tender bedside manner when in Nurse Scarlett mode. It’s a role I take on only for those closest to me, but I do enjoy it. My organizational skills and comfort giving orders make me an effective caretaker. It doesn’t hurt that I don’t mind bodily fluids or blood either. ūüėČ

However I *am* going a bit stir-crazy because the blizzard has kept us cooped up inside so much. There’s also a kink in my neck from napping in my friend’s hospital room. But it’s a small price to pay for being able to care for a dear friend in their time of need.

 

 

 

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Sick, Sad World.

Posted in dominatrix, domme, femdom, humiliatrix, personal, scarlettlush  by ScarlettLush
March 1st, 2016

Some of you have been asking where I’ve disappeared to. Not really anywhere, unless you count my dark bedroom.

Migraines, they have consumed my life again. Ugh, just typing out the word frustrates me.

Last November I got off medication that was giving me awful side effects: sleeping 12+ hours a day, groggy all the time, and basically zapping all my energy. I’m normally a bright, active person and this was taking a huge toll on my body and mind.

Then in December I switched to a new medication and it sparked the mother of all migraines. I was sick for 15 days, pain level 7-10 of constant migraine. I went in and out of hospitals, walk-in clinics, saw my doctor and neurologist multiple times, tried a weird new procedure that drips lidocaine into my nose, saw a chiropractor, got on steroids, etc.¬†I’ve never had a migraine last more than 48 hours, this was pure torture. Every doctor I saw didn’t know what to do or couldn’t give me answers on why it was happening.

Nothing would break the migraine. The few remedies that did anything provided a few hours of partial relief at most, but never completely stopped the migraine. It always returned in full force. I thought I was dying. I lost weight. I put all of my projects/work on hold. I spent most days in bed wishing for relief or death.

After 15 days the pain started dwindling away. I had an appetite again. I was feeling okay and figured that was the end of it.

In mid-January the migraine tornado returned. Not at strong as before and only lasted a week, but it still sucked and I was pissed. I hate laying and sitting around. The pain was eating away at my happiness, but my neurologist figured out it was a delayed withdrawal symptom of the medication I’d stopped.

Just as the migraine storms calmed down, I realized something else was off. The new medication I was on was making me feel worse than the old one. It messed with my cognitive abilities in an intense way. Suddenly spelling, reading, figuring out maps or puzzles, even coming up with the right words to speak became challenging. I was in a constant mental fog. I learned this medication was not-so-affectionately referred to as “dopamax” for very good reasons. It also kept me awake at night and ¬†made me nauseous 24/7. Any physical activity I attempted, even gentle yoga, would cause me to vomit and sometimes even trigger a migraine. On top of all that, it wasn’t reducing the frequency or intensity of my migraines. I was still getting them at least 4 days a week.

I had to slowly taper off that medication and now I’m on something new. It’s only been a week, but it’s been the best I’ve felt in a long time. I wake up with energy in the morning again. It seems like it has much better control of my migraines already. I’ve only had one. so far. Interrupted and poor sleep is still a big migraine trigger for me but it seems like this medication is helping.¬†I’m getting control of my migraines, they aren’t controlling me anymore. And for someone who gets off on being in control, this is a huge deal in my life. I don’t like anything else running Scarlett’s world.

So for those of you wondering, yes I’m still here and yes I’m still working. I’m not going anywhere, just had to take a break for my health. If you’ve emailed me in the past few months for a session and didn’t get a response, I was probably sick. So feel free to email me again.

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I’m back bitches!

August 21st, 2015

It’s been a long 6 months. At the end of August I will have officially graduated salutatorian with a gpa of 3.9. I will be licensed in Florida to provide skincare needs. My official title is esthetician, but my favorite is waxing. Especially men. I’m hoping to land a part time job at a waxing spa.

What does this mean for Scarlett Lush? I’m one of those people who cannot sit home every day behind a desk. As much as I love filming, modeling, and online domination I get burned out if I don’t change up my routine. My in-person sessions fulfill that need but unfortunately it can be a bit unstable. I love staying busy and learning, so going back to school was a great idea for my mental sanity. I feel more inspired and have more ideas to bring to website.

 

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About a year ago Youtube banned my account for being too racy, so I’ve redirected my channel to focus on kink and sex education. I will be reviewing products, answering BDSM questions, and talking about anything interesting in the kink world. I added a new video today reviewing two different chastity devices. ¬†Check out my latest one here:

I’m very happy to be on the path I’ve created. Thank you for reading and following.

 

P.S. My video store will be updated tomorrow evening. http://clips4sale.com/studio/57621

 

 

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Life Changes and Limited Time.

Posted in dominatrix, humiliatrix, personal  by ScarlettLush
February 20th, 2015

It’s two months into 2015 and already my subs have exceeded my expectations. I’ve been spoiled and am very grateful for them always thinking of me.

Gold 1920’s styled earrings.

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Kate Spade fuchsia glitter pumps and a matching wristlet.

 

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My first pair of Louboutin nude pumps! These are 100% sex in shoe form.

 

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A purple iPod Nano for my workouts.

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And a brand new 27″ 4K iMac! It’s beautiful and the graphics and resolution are better than anything I’ve ever seen before. It’s going to be great for online sessions and video editing. Some new Youtube videos will be coming up soon…

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What’s Next in Scarlett’s Life?

My life is busy and full of being around people who make me happy and inspire me. I’ve decided to enroll in school to get my esthetician’s license. I’ve been a Professional Domme for a long time now and wanted to expand my makeover knowledge. With these skills I will be better able to transform men into sissy bois, wax men’s hairy bodies and be an even better makeup artist for the occasional vanilla client.¬†I *love* learning so I’m really looking forward to school starting on Monday!

Unfortunately for you, I won’t be taking on new clients for the next 6 months. I’m lucky¬†enough that my regulars keep my schedule full, though I may consider online sessions with new clients if I have spare time. I’ll post the info here if I do.

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That’s all for now. Have a kinky day.

 

xoxo,

Scarlett Lush

 

 

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It’s a Fabulous Year!

Posted in humiliatrix, personal  by ScarlettLush
January 8th, 2015

I’ve never been a quitter. I’ve fought, had headaches, whined, and used my one connection into the Youtube world and finally it has all paid off. My Youtube account is back! Not only that but all my videos are still there!

https://www.youtube.com/user/scarlettlush/videos

After months of doctors visits, new medications, seeing a neurologist, rearranging my lifestyle habits, changing my diet, and sadly giving up things I enjoy, I’ve finally started getting fewer migraines. I went from 3-5 a week to only having a few last month. So now I can look into working out again (it was a trigger), trying red wine (another huge trigger), and maybe not having a migraine in the morning if I have to get up early or if I miss some sleep in the night. Which happens often when you have a puppy.

Last year might have been a rough one but this year should be awesome. Thank you for the patience and support while I slowly embrace all the new changes in my life.

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The Dirty Thirties

November 22nd, 2014

This month, November 28th to be exact, I turn 30 years young! Despite my suffering health this year has been relatively awesome. I have a fully equipped dungeon that I’m able to share with subs, lovers, and friends. I have three furry children who look up to me as their adoptive Mom. And I still get to be my own boss, which I’ll admit, is superior than most bosses. ūüėČ

 

If you’ll feeling generous I have a wishlist online via amazon which ships directly to my house. It can be found at ¬†http://amzn.com/w/1G4VVZT8MPBMX

 

I love cards and hand written letters. I save all of them. Bring me one when you come serve me.

Scarlett Lush

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Rise of the Migraines

Posted in personal  by ScarlettLush
November 8th, 2014

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The past few moths have been rough. My health has been declining, sending me to the ER five times this year. I normally never visit the emergency room, let alone multiple times a year.

My illness? Chronic migraines.

So far this year has been the peak of my neurological disorder. Nothing in my lifestyle has changed to warrant these bursts of frequent painful events, but I’ve had to readjust my life tremendously¬†because of them. I’ve spent a lot of time in bed and in pain. As someone who enjoys control over all areas of my life and staying busy, it has also had an impact on my mental health too. I’ve been depressed. Sitting around waiting to try new drug cocktails prescribed from my doctor or lying in bed and waiting for the pain to pass has been my life recently and I’ve loathed it. I used to be so busy I didn’t have a moment to spare, I also only took vitamins as a daily supplement. Now I’m on a few different types of preventative medications and have painkillers for when an attack hits. Unfortunately my pain killers are so strong that sometimes the side-effects make it impossible to drive, work, or do much physically.

Bleh.

I’m waiting to see a neurologist that is highly recommended for migraine and cluster headache treatment. I’ve been on a waiting list to see him for months and hopefully he’ll have suggestions that let me live a more active, pain-free life.

For now¬†I’m a zombie in the morning and for most of the afternoon. I perk up a bit in the evenings thanks to a new medicine that doesn’t have awful side effects. It’s been slow but I’m gradually adjusting to it.

I look forward to filming and playing a lot again in the future, and even taking on new clients. Until then know that I’m still around and dominating, because I rule my life and wont give in to these damned migraines.

The New York Times recently posted about the severity of this illness. If you’re curious, check it out:

http://op-talk.blogs.nytimes.com/2014/11/06/why-migraines-deserve-more-attention/?smid=re-share&_r=0

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The Joys of Blackmail.

February 10th, 2014
Little Piggy Foot Fag once tried to be in chastity with me, but couldn’t cut it. He was whiney and bought a cheap device that hurt his penis too much for him to bear. In a moment of clarity, he decided that blackmail might help steel his nerve. Humiliating pictures would have to be sent to my inbox every day for a week for our new blackmail training. Unfortunately, after two days he became unmotivated, so I invited him to my home to take the pictures myself and to ensure they were sufficiently embarrassing.
As of today he has¬†six months to pay me back $50 per picture to have them removed from my site. I will decide which one will be removed with each payment. If by the end of the six months he hasn’t paid me back the total amount, he will then be forced to have his dick pierced. Not only is he against the idea of piercings, he also has been scouring OKCupid desperate to get dates. Knowing his dick is pierced (the jewelry will be both ugly and feminine) will prevent him from getting an erection with any of his dates, resulting in lots of painful blue balls.¬†
Sometimes Little Piggy forgets how much of a loser he is and how much he is willing to embarrass himself for my entertainment. I know that once this goes live, he will be filled with regret. Oh and did I mention he’s unemployed? So these will be here for a nice, long while.¬†
Eat it up, Piggy. 
Little piggy has paid his debt. Put I’m keeping up one pic for my own amusement.

I just noticed that I have 8 pictures and 1 video, which comes out to 9 items total. He should start looking for a job asap. What girl is going to date him now?

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Fun, Fun

January 17th, 2014

Today I am cleaning and reorganizing my toys.

Come to my dungeon to see my new stuff. ūüėČ

 

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