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I’m Sick.

February 22nd, 2018

This is hard to admit, but I am not doing well right now.

I’ve been suffering from severe chronic migraines since I was a teenager. Calling them “headaches” doesn’t do them justice; I can’t take aspirin or ibuprofen to help with the pain, I can barely function when they hit, and the recovery is slow and leaves me vulnerable to rebound migraines for hours or days afterwards. I have to spend most of my time walking on eggshells, babying myself and avoiding many of my favorite activities.

I want to be healthy so. badly. I spend most of my days hiding in a dark room, listening to the low hum of a white noise machine while I sip Pedialyte and try not to vomit or pass out from the pain. If I’m lucky, I get two days per week of normal-ish functioning.

I have 10 different medications on me at all times in case a migraine hits. Sometimes the meds do nothing, and I end up in the ER because the nausea is so intense I’m unable to keep pills or liquids down. Even when the meds do work, they leave my brain foggy, zap all my energy, and turn me into a vegetable. I can’t drive, make simple decisions, or remember much of what happens around me. I’ve been on countless other preventative medications and tried a lot of lifestyle changes, but nothing has worked so far. And some of the preventative side effects have been almost as bad as having the migraine anyway.

To reduce the likelihood of a migraine, I’ve tried to identify what can trigger them. So far my list is:

low blood sugar
birth control
hormone changes around my cycle
too much sleep
too little sleep
barometric pressure changes (more than 0.20 milibars per day)
strong chemical smells
severe climate changes
heavy smoke
physical labor
and possibly certain foods

I’m very active on migraine blogs and have tried countless remedies in an attempt to get relief. I receive emails from people offering me advice and I truly appreciate it. Here’s what I’ve done so far:

Lots of medications (too many to list – if you’ve heard of a migraine med assume I’ve done it)
massage therapy
over hydrating (seriously, I drink tons of water)
essential oils
seeing a regular chiropractor
sphenopalatine ganglion (SPG) nerve blocks
CBD oil
every over the counter medicine or migraine remedy I’ve encountered

What I’m trying this year:

Botox (I’m waiting on my neurologist to see if we can try it)
I’m waiting for paperwork for an inpatient headache clinic in Philly. I want to go ASAP. It’s supposed to be the one of the best in the world and I’m hoping they can help identify more effective therapies and reduce my pain.
Elimination dieting
…And whatever else my doctors recommend

My mental health has suffered significantly because I’m sick all the damn time. Being barely able to function makes me feel awful and guilty. The pain, depression, and anxiety pull me into a downward spiral of negativity and wreck any attempts at productivity.

I’m often so weak that I have to rely heavily on my poly/kink family. They are my world, and I am so thankful to have them in my life. When we go out they make sure I have water and snacks, and they watch out for me to make sure I’m feeling ok as the night progresses and I expend what energy I do have. When we stay in, they play video games and watch awful reality tv with me to help distract me, and they take turns rubbing my head and shoulders to help ease the pain. They let me cry, vent, and take me to doctors appointments or hospitals when I’m too sick to function. I’ve always valued my independence, strength, and my ability to lead and get shit done. Not being able to fulfill that strong leader-type of role is really messing with my sanity. It’s very difficult for me to ask for help, admit that I’m sick, and not shine the way I normally do. Simply put, my mind is fierce and strong and my body just isn’t keeping up. I feel like I’m too young and have too much life to live to be inside and in pain all of the time.

But, I’m not a quitter. I’m a problem solver and a hard worker. I’ll figure out a way to make this work and shine again. Sessions are hard for me these days, but I’m actively trying to do more. If you’re looking for services from me, keep emailing me once a month to see how I’m doing. I want to see you, I just can’t when I’m only 20% okay. You deserve me when I’m able to give you 100% of my creative, sadistic self. I don’t do half measures – it’s not how my brain works.

I also get a lot of requests offering help when I’m sick, for massages, food runs, errands, etc. I really appreciate the offers but I’m not generally in a state to receive them. I prefer to hide in a cave only exposing myself to those I trust. You don’t want to serve a Queen who has been in pajamas all day, hasn’t done her hair or makeup and can barely function – and even if you don’t mind, I do. I prefer not to be seen in that light, even by my favorite submissives.

There are a few flavors of help that I’m comfortable accepting in my weakened state: Come to my live channel and hop in chat and talk to me! Send me a nice email. I put things on my wishlist that help like food items, Uber gift cards, etc. Follow my social media and leave nice comments. Just be a decent human being. I notice these things, and I’ll recognize and reward for your kind acts of service when I’m feeling better.

Thanks for listening.


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I moved to D.C.

June 7th, 2017

I decided that I was ready for a change and moved up the coast to Washington, D.C. I have friends in the area and a close network of kinky people. My favorite bdsm¬†events are in the DC/Baltimore area and I was overall ready for some new scenery. I’m visiting Orlando every once in a while for friends and for sessions but for now my home base is D.C. and I’ll be accepting new clients for in person sessions and online. If you’re interested in serving me send a polite email to


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Life Update

March 24th, 2017

Life. is. good.

November and December are always a blur thanks to my birthday and the holidays. The most memorable moment was being thoroughly spoiled at the mall during a Christmas session in Orlando with a long-time client. Teasing and torturing someone who has been so loyal and caring over the years is always a delightful experience for me.

January and February were incredibly busy, but March has slowed down. I’m currently in Philly with my best friend who is undergoing a fairly complicated surgery. I’ve been her nurse and caregiver since March 12th. Being raised in the South didn’t prepare me for all this snow. I don’t know how people deal with this weather. The calm beauty of a blizzard is nice but I’ve been freezing my tail off. I just want to stay in bed or in a hot bath all day long. I need to gear up before I embark on another snowy adventure.

Most people are surprised that I have such a tender bedside manner when in Nurse Scarlett mode. It’s a role I take on only for those closest to me, but I do enjoy it. My organizational skills and comfort giving orders make me an effective caretaker. It doesn’t hurt that I don’t mind bodily fluids or blood either. ūüėČ

However I *am* going a bit stir-crazy because the blizzard has kept us cooped up inside so much. There’s also a kink in my neck from napping in my friend’s hospital room. But it’s a small price to pay for being able to care for a dear friend in their time of need.




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Owning Your Manhood

October 26th, 2016

I have a pet that I have the fortune to play with from time-to-time. He supplies his cock and balls, and I torture them in session. It’s a mutually beneficial relationship as I¬†thrive¬†being a sadist, and he, a masochist is very happy to allow me to be wicked and creative on him.

I’ve been on a medical staple kick lately and he offered to let me staple his testicles and use a pretty green ribbon to tie up each sides.

He came for his session and I saw more nervousness and sweat pouring out of him than I’ve ever seen before. We’ve been playing for a few years so it was adorable seeing this new apprehensive energy coming from him. After it was done I rewarded him by removing the staples gently and beating his balls with a various assortment of toys. We are quite the team.

I have pictures but added them to a different gallery since it’s very *nsfw* and medical staples can make people squeamish.


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2.6 Million Views!

September 26th, 2016



Wow, I’m so flattered and humbled by all of the views and subscribers on youtube. Thank you for watching and being a fan. I might not film as often as I like, but when I do I always get a lot of support. And for that, I’ll continue to make videos.

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I Need More Time in the Day.

August 4th, 2016



If I could clone myself a few times, I would probably take over the world, but until that happens my time is extremely limited. I put 100% of my energy into everything I do and while I love my sessions and my regular clients, it can be very draining. I do, at most, two or three a day, because I don’t want to burn out doing something I love or give anyone less than my whole self while being involved in a scene.

I enjoy interacting with people from all walks of life and from different parts of the world! I love exploring the human mind and the Internet is a great way to reach a larger audience. I’m excited that I’ve found a new way to connect with submissives, kinky folks, sissies, slaves, fans, BDSM lovers, foot boys and whatever else you identify as through Chatstar. My personal profile is¬† I’ll be accepting calls when I have free time, ¬†day or night. Texting/picture exchange will always be turned on. I love this website because it filters out people that piss me off and ruin the fun for everyone. So check it out, lets make a connection and see where it leads.


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Sick, Sad World.

March 1st, 2016

Some of you have been asking where I’ve disappeared to. Not really anywhere, unless you count my dark bedroom.

Migraines, they have consumed my life again. Ugh, just typing out the word frustrates me.

Last November I got off medication that was giving me awful side effects: sleeping 12+ hours a day, groggy all the time, and basically zapping all my energy. I’m normally a bright, active person and this was taking a huge toll on my body and mind.

Then in December I switched to a new medication and it sparked the mother of all migraines. I was sick for 15 days, pain level 7-10 of constant migraine. I went in and out of hospitals, walk-in clinics, saw my doctor and neurologist multiple times, tried a weird new procedure that drips lidocaine into my nose, saw a chiropractor, got on steroids, etc.¬†I’ve never had a migraine last more than 48 hours, this was pure torture. Every doctor I saw didn’t know what to do or couldn’t give me answers on why it was happening.

Nothing would break the migraine. The few remedies that did anything provided a few hours of partial relief at most, but never completely stopped the migraine. It always returned in full force. I thought I was dying. I lost weight. I put all of my projects/work on hold. I spent most days in bed wishing for relief or death.

After 15 days the pain started dwindling away. I had an appetite again. I was feeling okay and figured that was the end of it.

In mid-January the migraine tornado returned. Not at strong as before and only lasted a week, but it still sucked and I was pissed. I hate laying and sitting around. The pain was eating away at my happiness, but my neurologist figured out it was a delayed withdrawal symptom of the medication I’d stopped.

Just as the migraine storms calmed down, I realized something else was off. The new medication I was on was making me feel worse than the old one. It messed with my cognitive abilities in an intense way. Suddenly spelling, reading, figuring out maps or puzzles, even coming up with the right words to speak became challenging. I was in a constant mental fog. I learned this medication was not-so-affectionately referred to as “dopamax” for very good reasons. It also kept me awake at night and ¬†made me nauseous 24/7. Any physical activity I attempted, even gentle yoga, would cause me to vomit and sometimes even trigger a migraine. On top of all that, it wasn’t reducing the frequency or intensity of my migraines. I was still getting them at least 4 days a week.

I had to slowly taper off that medication and now I’m on something new. It’s only been a week, but it’s been the best I’ve felt in a long time. I wake up with energy in the morning again. It seems like it has much better control of my migraines already. I’ve only had one. so far. Interrupted and poor sleep is still a big migraine trigger for me but it seems like this medication is helping.¬†I’m getting control of my migraines, they aren’t controlling me anymore. And for someone who gets off on being in control, this is a huge deal in my life. I don’t like anything else running Scarlett’s world.

So for those of you wondering, yes I’m still here and yes I’m still working. I’m not going anywhere, just had to take a break for my health. If you’ve emailed me in the past few months for a session and didn’t get a response, I was probably sick. So feel free to email me again.

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I’m back bitches!

August 21st, 2015

It’s been a long 6 months. At the end of August I will have officially graduated salutatorian with a gpa of 3.9. I will be licensed in Florida to provide skincare needs. My official title is esthetician, but my favorite is waxing. Especially men. I’m hoping to land a part time job at a waxing spa.

What does this mean for Scarlett Lush? I’m one of those people who cannot sit home every day behind a desk. As much as I love filming, modeling, and online domination I get burned out if I don’t change up my routine. My in-person sessions fulfill that need but unfortunately it can be a bit unstable. I love staying busy and learning, so going back to school was a great idea for my mental sanity. I feel more inspired and have more ideas to bring to website.



About a year ago Youtube banned my account for being too racy, so I’ve redirected my channel to focus on kink and sex education. I will be reviewing products, answering BDSM questions, and talking about anything interesting in the kink world. I added a new video today reviewing two different chastity devices. ¬†Check out my latest one here:

I’m very happy to be on the path I’ve created. Thank you for reading and following.


P.S. My video store will be updated tomorrow evening.



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Life Changes and Limited Time.

February 20th, 2015

It’s two months into 2015 and already my subs have exceeded my expectations. I’ve been spoiled and am very grateful for them always thinking of me.

Gold 1920’s styled earrings.



Kate Spade fuchsia glitter pumps and a matching wristlet.



My first pair of Louboutin nude pumps! These are 100% sex in shoe form.



A purple iPod Nano for my workouts.


And a brand new 27″ 4K iMac! It’s beautiful and the graphics and resolution are better than anything I’ve ever seen before. It’s going to be great for online sessions and video editing. Some new Youtube videos will be coming up soon…




What’s Next in Scarlett’s Life?

My life is busy and full of being around people who make me happy and inspire me. I’ve decided to enroll in school to get my esthetician’s license. I’ve been a Professional Domme for a long time now and wanted to expand my makeover knowledge. With these skills I will be better able to transform men into sissy bois, wax men’s hairy bodies and be an even better makeup artist for the occasional vanilla client.¬†I *love* learning so I’m really looking forward to school starting on Monday!

Unfortunately for you, I won’t be taking on new clients for the next 6 months. I’m lucky¬†enough that my regulars keep my schedule full, though I may consider online sessions with new clients if I have spare time. I’ll post the info here if I do.




That’s all for now. Have a kinky day.



Scarlett Lush



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It’s a Fabulous Year!

January 8th, 2015

I’ve never been a quitter. I’ve fought, had headaches, whined, and used my one connection into the Youtube world and finally it has all paid off. My Youtube account is back! Not only that but all my videos are still there!

After months of doctors visits, new medications, seeing a neurologist, rearranging my lifestyle habits, changing my diet, and sadly giving up things I enjoy, I’ve finally started getting fewer migraines. I went from 3-5 a week to only having a few last month. So now I can look into working out again (it was a trigger), trying red wine (another huge trigger), and maybe not having a migraine in the morning if I have to get up early or if I miss some sleep in the night. Which happens often when you have a puppy.

Last year might have been a rough one but this year should be awesome. Thank you for the patience and support while I slowly embrace all the new changes in my life.

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